I have been thinking about blogging but
lately I haven't had time.
Much has been going on in my life.
My apologies. Kinda.
Have to give credit
where credit is due...
I was prematurely inspired.
Yes that makes sense.
But yes for my fans,
I owe you a huge explanation.
All 2 of you.
When difficulties arise You can either choose fear or faith.
Im sure all of you can guess. I made the counterfactual choice.
Which is another reason, I haven't been around.
Alot of operose things have been happening in my life.
I feel like I have made sacrifices in order to gain momentarily.
You think I would have learned many years ago. How to overcome
opposition. So All I can ask is that you dont judge me because
although we are alike, I sin differently than you.
Things that Have been Amazing.
Orrin, the peach of my tree.
Making straight A's, in school.
Work has been promising.
Financially stable, feels good.
Living situation, comfortable.
Social Life, prodigious.
Notice I left out an Important subject or two.
Without having to claim, I think You can figure
my priorities are fucked. To be without reserve.
The most important things in my life are now on
the back burner to my successes and selfish desires.
My weekends comfortably, have turned into ethanol induced slumbers.
Postponed bedtimes and welcoming the daylight with cherry eyes.
Why is it that I always want to blame others for my nonsensical decisions.
Thats how it all started. I finally overcame the renegement that its always
my fault and always has been. Only because I was stronger than I gave
myself credit for.
Ive drained myself of my drive to endure.
Im trying to convince myself I have more and iam
not the person I am believing myself to be.
I KNOW this with imperishable confidence.
Where to now. I have my goals but to include
my orthodoxy and passion for christ (which is
unwaivering) is the ultimate compliance.
I hate this journey and
how damn repetitive it is. The End.
