Hello There....

I like to Write alot. I dont have much time to always grab my journal, find a pen and write down what im thinking....I often find myself searching for something on this Darn Computer. So here I will type my thoughts. Today you will learn about me. Here I can be brutally honest.
I hope your ready for the Spice.

So me. Simply put. I am insecure. Sucks i know. Not about everything just a select few things. I feel like I need to recognize them in order to overcome them. This Blog and my Speech class has to help somehow.
Anda:
I dont care much for others feelings, to spare them.
There are Trillions of ppl on this world, if you dont shape up someone will....
I feel like I have to have different genres of freinds.
I like having Options (which has alot to do with my insecurities)
I am selfish.
I believe in not being second, to anyone.

Insecurities:
That although im beautiful, whomever iam with will always see other women (its happened before).
I will not be able to accomplish enough to be interesting.
Iam afraid that as a single mother I wont be able to impact my sons life.
Dont like When people think they are better than me.
As common as it is, im afraid i wont be able to finish school...This is where the challenge starts.

These past few weeks, I have been trying to re-mold my priorities. Cause most of the things I listed above ^^^ arent even in the slightest way important.
My Goal this year is Sacrifice. Period. Trying to be selfless.
In my eyes this consists of -->Put the Lord first and his children. Pay my tithes. Pray Always. Early to bed. NO cursing, judging, or boys. Period. He will provide. I think if i can do these simple things, everything else will slowly fall into place. I just have a Sass Attitude to lose in the process.
Im angry, opinionated & Mean and I want to drop it of on the Corner with Five bucks and tell him to find a new freind. Im moving on.
I mean 70% of the time Iam content. Iam talking about the other 30% ... the times when I let my emotions/doubt from past experiences over power, the person I have slowly become....

I like who Iam Now.