The Windows We hide behind....

Counterfeit. We all suffer from it. Somewhere along the lines of growing up and finding ourselves, we lost ourselves in an Image. Whats Ok, Whats not ok, What gets us by, what gets us attention and more importantly....What gets us what we want. Fictitious.

Its Sad Actually.
I see it all too often. We are afraid to accept ourselves. So we make New ones. We pretend to be someone everyone wants to be around. We do stupid things that are accepted by society. IE... Throwing ourselves at men (heaven forbid), Chasing women, Putting others down, Rumors, Drinking....etc. I will never understand why some people thinks these habits are so important.

Its Smart Actually.
We talk ourselves up. We pretend we are the Best at everything. We cover our insecurities with pompous prosperity. We are all on the same planet, &You are not better than the next. When are we going to accept that our fellowman, is equal to the worth of our own.  This grants an invented assurance. Which in some cases goes to our heads. One of the Very reasons I enjoy being unrelentingly honest.

Its Humbling Actually.
As we accept these things about ourselves. We blossom, We learn what matters, Who will be around, Who loves us, and what we can become. We break through these windows that we hide behind. These identities that cover the beautiful divergent spirits we where born with...

I have to admit. I have been one of these Forged persons in my past. I was not raised this way, Its the same excuse we have to every question our parents ask us....I forgot. I forgot that I was loved Continuously, Forever and ever, To no end...... Ive been through alot. Im not going to tell you about it, cause its none of your business. Remember Folks this is not a confessional. I just want you to remember though (let me repeat myself) I been through alot. So if your in my life, welcome. If not leave me alone, really. I dont favor silly people. I like being alone (figuratively speaking, as in I dont always have to be with someone, friends all the time... etc) I like knowing where I stand and how I can improve. I like being in control of my future. I know what is important to me. I know what matters in this life and what is a waste of time. I appreciate my trials. I am grateful to have overcome them. I hope to be a representation to others that struggle with accepting themselves or their habits. Change is good and it FEELS even better. Let me tell you, If feels so good to be Myself. Free from the chains that used to bind me to imposition.

In no way is this post intended to be negative...So I apologize for YOUR misinterpretation. That includes my previous blogs as well. If you have any questions Please ask. Oh and If i must Say it....IAM NOT PERFECT, or EVEN RIGHT, THIS IS JUST MY THOUGHTS.