No Bad Days.

I know its been too long. Realize my life is busy. It even warns you in the brief description of myself. For the few of you who read my blog, I apologize and will now be updating you. 


It has been wonderful. Maybe I say that way too often. Very rarely do I have bad days. I can probably can count all of them with 3 fingers. Ha. I have days where they start of great, and I dont say much, I just feel like Being. Then there are days I know I will be busy and all day Im trying so hard not to step on toes cause I wont be paying attention to the little things. Then there are days When Iam just there, and no one can get me down. Then there are the bad ones (Rare ones) that I cant remember how they start/end and once its over Iam so grateful to shut my eyes at night. 


I have been Noticing my attachment to my Son grow over the past few months. Its bewildering. I cant get over the fact that I LOVE spending time with him. I took him to Sea World for Spring Break. He loved it!! He has a high ingenuity. Iam not just saying that because iam his mother and he is my son. If I didnt know him, I would admire him so much that I would want a child like him. Maybe its his ability to communicate with me. He knows me now, and I know him. Its fun the relationship we have. When he talks, I understand him to a T. So when he talks and others dont understand him.... Im thinking maybe something is wrong with the others. Ok, sounding like a mom here. Who cares. I love it. Being a mom is the funnest job I have. 


Story time: 
For those who dont know me and want to.... I got pregnant outside of marriage. I lived with Orrins dad for almost a year and we broke up. He moved out, went back to his Ex(of nine years mind you), I went through alot (skipping some info here) and we started seeing each other again. We stopped seeing each other finally & I found out I was preggers, he had no job, he moved in with his Homeboys Girlfriend (he was in jail at the time) who had a new baby. Phew. We didn't talk. I worked. I worked all of the time. Saved up Money. Cause I knew I would be raising my little one on my own. I prepared for the worst. Then he came. I took a 2 month leave from work. It was never as bad as I had planned, being a single parent. We lived alone in a little Apartment in Carrollton. I was Beyond blessed to have an amazing child who started Sleeping thru the night at 2.5 months, walking at 7.5 months, and only sent me to the ER in the middle of the night once. 6 months after I had Orrin Luke Harkey-Barfield, I took his dad to court for child support (which was prob a bad idea, due to the restrictions I have to suffer from). He needed to be involved in his child's life. He needed to help me with all of Orrins Bills, Daycare, Clothes, Diapers and Medical. I had began to Over work myself trying to take care of us and go to school. Orrins dad is Not a Bad dad (trying to be nice). He is very much the same person I met 4 years ago, and has not changed in the slightest. Although since then hes switched Jobs a Number of times and child support comes and goes. Like all of us after a bad decision has been made, I often ask myself...what i was thinking. I even ask What I have to learn from this particular individual. Patience? Forgiveness? Dealing with his father is Frustrating. Not being able to Move wherever I choose is rough. His fathers complaints drive me mad (He doesn't know half of the things I have had to sacrifice and do on my own). I would not trade these experiences for anything else. This Kid can change my mood at the drop of a dime. Hince the reason I rarely have bad days. 


Iam so In love with my son. I cant wait for Heavenly Father to Bless me with a Husband who loves him the same. Hes So Dang Happy about life,his theme songs, school, potty training, Riding our dogs and sleeping dead birds. Hes My grasshopper. My spidey superman. My sugar Love baby. Hes so independent just like Me. He loves his Aunts, Uncles, Nim, Pops, Grandma, Papa, G-daddy, Daddy & Mommy.  


Being a mother is Such a Blessing.